wtf

i dont knw how to fucking explain how im feeling now .
if only i knew the words that explained it .

i hate it when pple ask me questions that i dont want to answer .
or rather , i dont knw how to answer .
if i say no , im lying & comforting myself .
but thats lying ,
im cheating myself .
even if i can lie to others , i cant lie to myself .
deep down inside , i knw what ive said was a lie .

its just a simple question , so easy to answer .
yes or no ,
yet it seemed as if it took me forever to think of an answer .
part of me wanted to tell the truth ,
part of me wanted to continue lying .



i mean , so what if i tell the truth ?
nothing's gonna come out of it .
so whats the point ?


im rlly feeling very lousy now .
& hopefully , the sun sand & sea will cheer me up later .



-out